[ It isn't just Riku who feels that way. It's difficult to think of him as the child that he met so long ago. He's grown into someone who's grown so strong - so determined to protect his friend. How could someone not admire him?
He can feel the heat of Riku's gaze, and he can't help but turn, tilting his head a little. ]
[as distracted as Riku is, he doesn't fully recognize what it means that Terra is turning around until Terra's voice snaps him out of it. he starts, jerking his gaze guiltily up to Terra's face as his own turns bright red.]
[Riku takes in a quick breath in sudden panic. crap, crap-- he hadn't thought that excuse through well enough, and now he's even more exposed; now Terra knows he's trying to hide something.
and he can't just lie. not to Terra, of all people.]
[he just doesn't know how to talk about this. feelings are one thing, he has no trouble admitting how much Terra means to him emotionally - but how in the world is he supposed to talk about being attracted to him physically? how does anyone ever manage to talk about that?
and he doesn't want Terra to... think any differently of him. it's not that he thinks Terra would be mad or anything, but... it's weird, right? when they first met, Riku had just been a child. of course he's grown up, nearly of an age with Terra now that Terra's body has been restored, but wouldn't it still be weird? to find out the little boy he'd left his legacy to, has become a young man who wants to, like, make out with him? and maybe more?]
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HERE WE GO
He can feel the heat of Riku's gaze, and he can't help but turn, tilting his head a little. ]
Riku?
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No-- it's nothing, sorry--
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he reaches then, placing a hand on riku's shoulder. ]
If there's something on your mind, you can tell me.
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[rubs the back of his neck nervously]
Sorry. Didn't mean to stare.
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Distracted? By me?
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and he can't just lie. not to Terra, of all people.]
I--
[it's too late. he's already caught.]
... y-yeah.
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[ If it's as Riku's saying, he wonders what could be on his mind.... Or if Terra had done something to distract him. ]
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No, no. It's okay, don't worry.
[he just doesn't know how to talk about this. feelings are one thing, he has no trouble admitting how much Terra means to him emotionally - but how in the world is he supposed to talk about being attracted to him physically? how does anyone ever manage to talk about that?
and he doesn't want Terra to... think any differently of him. it's not that he thinks Terra would be mad or anything, but... it's weird, right? when they first met, Riku had just been a child. of course he's grown up, nearly of an age with Terra now that Terra's body has been restored, but wouldn't it still be weird? to find out the little boy he'd left his legacy to, has become a young man who wants to, like, make out with him? and maybe more?]
-- I don't want you to think I'm weird.